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I Don’t Want to be Me Anymore

You know, I am really getting annoyed with God.

Each day I hate that He made me the person and man that I am. Each day I have more and more examples of people and girls — especially girls — who seem to be repulsed by me.

Yet, if OTHER people do things that I do, or act the way I do, or say things I do or perform on the field as I do, people, and especially girls, give them plenty of attention. But me… nothing. Cold shoulder. I’m getting fed up with this.

I wish I could just flip a switch and turn off everything about myself that makes me… me. Turn off all my emotions, all my feelings, all my passion. I don’t want to feel ever again.

If I can’t feel, then I won’t care. If I don’t care, then I won’t feel all this pain inside every time I’m rejected or ignored or shunned for being… me.

I don’t want to be me anymore…

June 5, 2012 , 9:40PM Posted by | Life, Love, Morals, Relationships, Romance | Comments Off on I Don’t Want to be Me Anymore